Single Era

In this point of my life I do not have a good track record with love. I've been in a relationship before, I've had one night stands, I've gone through situationships and I've kissed random boys. I'm in my twenties I like to have fun, but I have not been too smart in my past. I went through a huge self reflection this past year of how I wanted to be more respectful to my body and focus on myself. I want a boyfriend and to be in a relationship especially with fall coming up, but I don't need one and I know that. I've been let down by boys too many times and I wanted to take a step back and realize my wants from my needs. 

Currently, I'm at a point where my family wants to set me up with every man they see or know that is single. It's sweet and I appreciate it, but it doesn't seem to work out. I'm picky and I am self aware, but I don't think there is anything wrong with that. I want to date to marry, not mess around. I know I'm young and everyone says to enjoy it and at most times I do, but most of my cousins are in a relationship or married, half of my friends are in a relationship, heck even majority of the company I work for is taken. It's all around me how does that not make you want it more? I went on a few dates this year, but I am usually the one who ends up saying no to more dates. I usually get the ick or just simply don't like them back. I should be more patient and know that sparks don't just happen on a first date, but to put it frank, I just don't think I have time in my life right now to even keep up with dating.